The past few months have been scary for me and many others I know. In my case, it seemed like everything was put on hold including money. My habitual response is to panic when something like this happens but with all I know about the power of the mind, I realize I Can't Afford the Luxury of a Negative Thought. Sometimes that's easier to say than do. When I need powerful reassurance that everything is gonna be okay, I go to Rev. Ahman. He is excellent at tying in concepts from The Bible with A Course in Miracles and bringing them down to earth so that anyone can understand them and use them. I will post a blog with Ahman's Mental Fast presentation within the next couple of days so you can see why I like him so much. Ahman has given me a vision to ponder for the past few weeks. It's me, as a tree. As I stand still and tall like a warrior, filled with faith everything I need is provided for me. The sun is absorbed by my leaves, feeding me. My roots suck in nutrients from the soil and an entire swirling mass of activity is all around me. Bugs, flies, ladybugs, butterflies, ants, wind, pollen. The constantly changing atmosphere is gradually contributing to my growth. Yet, to look at me, it would be easy to say I look exactly the same from day to day. You cannot see growth but it is happening. It will happen faster if I let it flow, if I don't block it with my thoughts of "not good enough", "I'll never make it" and "what difference does it make" and yadda, yadda, yadda. So, that's my job, don't allow the thoughts of resistance to block the flow that is trying to happen within me. I can do that job pretty easily lately because I've been getting hypnotized by Jessica Bergvist just about once a week for the past 4 weeks. I am going with the flow more and more all the time. I have also connected with some amazing people in the past year or so. I am constantly inspired by my surroundings. Examples include hiphopphilosophy.com, working out with Your Next Victory and LA Derby Dolls, attending Agape Toastmasters and meeting with my Master Mind partners. So many wonderful people have continuted to reflect my potential back to me every day, patiently, over a period of years. They gently coaxed and nurtured me out of my state of complete self-loathing. Prior to their arrival, I was literally trapped in a shell. I could barely see out of the crudely cut holes in the cardboard box that contained me. These supportive people, in addition to my husband, have shown me a pretty cool person with a lot of potential. Believe it or not, they showed me a person I actually wanted to be but didn't think I could be. This blog is a great example of how rapidly the "force" has been moving through me. If you look at the date on my first entry, it was May 3, 2008 (the very DAY I attended Kathe Shaff's workshop and met Sierra and read The Ray). I have posted 27 blogs since then. I even have some pre-written blogs I haven't published yet. I am brimming with ideas. I am unstoppable (that's one of the suggestions Jessica put in my CD, she had me imagine I was a stream running down the side of a mountain, unstoppable, and so relaxing!) Ahman's son drew an outline of the tree for us to use. Each of the big leaves represents a goal you want to acheive or a vision for your life. I wrote my goals in my leaves and then colored it all in and tried to communicate some of the energy floating around this tree of me. When I focus on this image I feel happy, calm, content and satisfied. When I think of my fears and "what if" I am anxious and uptight. It doesn't help me get anything done. I hope you enjoy the tree. If you click on it you can see an enlarged version. If you want to support my financial unfoldment, please click on the donation button on this blog or go shopping at donateyourweight.com.